Envy

I'm not in a good mood since yesterday. I don't feel any comfort, my heart beats faster, my mind is not focus, and my ears so itchy. Just to hear and see someone alse's (or even my friend's) happiness and her/his superiority than what I am or what I have right now. Comparing mine to others.
I know it's not a very good attitude.
This all means I'm not grateful with all I have.
It is envy ...
It sometimes happened to me.
May be someone else did to me, too.
And it never ends in pleasure...
Just wanna ease this feeling away from me.
Just wanna share it is okay to have an envy inside you ...or me, if we have a courage to fight this feeling.
Because it useless.
Envy hurts you deeply, it brings you away from e'one you love.
Astaghfirllah ...

~ Envy eats nothing but its own heart ~